Makers & Breakers

It's nice to know my insecurities are a joke. Thanks.

School is going to start in a few weeks time :(
The holidays always seems to end very quickly.
What I did during the holiday? Haha the usual. Eat, sleep, repeat. 

I only realised after Yus mentioned it's the start of short weeks.
I haven't touch any homework, any revision, and history (!!) I'm having History test idon'tknowwhen.
History is probably the worst subject to study for a test/exam because it never fails to put me to sleep after reading a few pages. History is only interesting to know but never to study. 
And I haven't train for 2.4 (seriously, who trains for 2.4) to regain back my gold. Actually no need gold also can, its not like as if I'm going NS.

So much for, during the holidays I will finish all year one shits and by the time I'm in year 2, everything is going to be solid. Joke lah obviously.
 
WAH I CANNOT BELIEVE BY THE END OF 2010 I'M SITTING FOR A LEVELS.
I'm not ready for everything.
I'm not ready to give my heart and soul and life to the fucking fucking a levels.
I'm not ready to stay in school until late.
I'm not ready to sacrifice my weekends.
I'm not ready to sacrifice my sleep.
Okay you get my drift..

But I'm ready for one thing, and one thing only.
I am ready for MUSE :D


(and Saosin, Rise Against, Matt Bellamy, KOC, 65dos, Dominic Howard, Universal Studios...and everything else, but not school)

If you wanna be my friend
You want us to get along
Please do not expect me to
Wrap it up and keep it there
The observation I am doing could
Easily be understood
As cynical demeanour
But one of us misread...
And what do you know
It happened again

A friend is not a means
You utilize to get somewhere
Somehow I didn't notice
friendship is an end
What do you know
It happened again

How come no-one told me
All throughout history
The loneliest people
Were the ones who always spoke the truth
The ones who made a difference
By withstanding the indifference
I guess it's up to me now
Should I take that risk or just smile?

What do you know
It happened again
What do you know

Down with flu, swollen throat, muscle aches and slightly bruised knees.

Fucked up sia.

alrighty i'm off to hwa chong for the fencing competition, & later on for the track bbq at east coast,
where i'll hopefully have enough energy to stay up throughout the night.
i'll die tmr i'll prolly sleep the whole day.
weekend trip was alright i suppose.. =/

not as exciting as last year when i had illya mimi and haiqal with me.
hahaha i miss haiqal was juz talking to him the other time and he was like
"i know you'd like this song"



damn right, this song is the sex!
i've kinda moved past my electronica phase but boy did it make me one happy lil druggie.
he met his gf at his workplace.. maybe i should work, eh i did try,

but nobody wanted to hire me.
nobody wants me. *slits wrists* keeedinggzz!

omg i'm late alr. chao owside!

This week went by too quickly probably because too many things happened.


( Highlights )

This past month has gotten me thinking alot, and I've realized I need to fucking prioritize me god-forsaken life. 2010 has been the shittiest year overall for me and I've traced it all back to me. I've never been one to follow through with new year resolutions but somebody please, please put a metaphorical gun to my head cos god knows I need one to get things going.

It amazes me how far deep in shit I get myself into.

The next time you're feeling abit down in the dumps, try doing the Mastercard Go dance. It would help if you do it with a friend who is willing enough. Do it do it do it do it for the sake of doing it even.

My appetite has decreased drastically since I fell sick. I ate less than half of my Nasi Ayam Penyet (I usually finish it eh) just now, I couldn't stuff it in anymore.

And my shoulders are starting to hurt again. It really, really hurts.

I miss you.

but after a train ride's worth of thinking
i've arrived to the terrifying deduction that i might grow old alone.

hahaha. ha. ha...
=/